Always second choice
I dont know why I need to choose my backup always in my life......
It's the same situation, I cannot get my favourest job. They rejected me so soon without any consideration. There were around 120 people in the list...and I am not the one.... I cannot believe that if i am really that poor and worse than those 120? While for the other job which i didnt tend to apply, jsut wanna give a try and I got the offer. I dont like that job at all...... but i guess if I got no other better choice, I will force myself to love it.... at least.....
Wanna get drunk last night....but totally fail.... I didnt feel anything ....
My lovely winter is gone......spring is coming.... i dont like it...
God my mood is just soooo blue and tongiht i am going to celebrate the Valentine's Day...how can I be sooo upset in front of him in this big day..... ah........
Suddenly lost my motivation....again.......... i guess after crying for awhile i can eb recovered, and start my job hunting again. so...jsut cry loudly....
2009 03 02, 01:22
Isn't it a wonderful valentine's day my love?
I can guarantee that you are my first choice but not the 2nd for sure!
Just relax and relax, I believe all people here, at least me, will continue to support you forever and ever!!
You are not alone, but with me to walk in every happiness and sadness in your life!
2009 03 10, 22:53
Getting drunk wont solve any problem, it would only make things worse...mess up your senses. Dont give yourself too mich pressure. Take things easy. Be strong and try to relax yourself.
You should look at the bright side of things and appreciate what you already have. At least you can get a job, although it is not your favorite. Remember, some people cant even get any job at all. And dont forget you have your bf and your friends by your side. So, be happy and start enjoying life.