隨心所言

If you are not my angel, please dont read it. So I expected that there will only one person or no one read this entry.

It's been years that you keep reading my diary, right? Although we cannot meet, we cannot chat, i guess it's still possible that you read my articles online. Whenever i saw the no. of Bean is increasing I will think of you. I dont know if i guess it correctly, coz in my memory, I only asked you to add me bean everyday.

I read all of your mails and comments left here once again. It costs me lots of time really. The feeling is complicated, I feel sweet, I feel sad, I feel disappointed, I feel........... my memory is refleshed once again, our time, our memory, our secret.......I was jsut a little girl at that time right? I did many things wrong right? Hehe, even i know I am still a little girl, I still keeping mistakes everyday........... without my angel walking side by side with me, I can still live well, enjoying my life(sometimes i dont, honestly....it's too bitter) I am getting stronger and stronger everyday when i wake up. Can you see that?

I dont know what's the meaning of purpose of writing this passage to you, jsut i wanna write it, or..... prove that you are still being next to me, even you are invisible. It's crazy, but i would love to see you again. I mean chatting, to share the life, our experience, our feeling, whatever. Now, you really seems like my Angel, not my bf, not someone I totally relied on, not someone who I should cry for........... so ....is that possible?