隨心所言

Lots of bad news recently and my mood seems cant be lighted up again.

I dont know why there must be so many things happened in the summer holiday every year. Can I enjoy a happy and fun summer instead of being so troublesome and annoying??

ok~ the first bad news: Ding Ding Ding~ Yes!! it's my family AGAIN! or should be my dear mum. Even i am stayingin the university and we meet less, we can still have fight whenever i back home. Last week is the vigourest one. I jsut rushed out of the door. I am sorry that I cannot bear it. I cant believe that you trust those stupid words instead of your daughter. I protect you in front of the others and the outcome is you asked your daughter to go to hell. My brother and I was trying our best to please you and wanna give you a peaceful life in the rest of the time, but seems that neither my brother nor I can do it. My home should be the comfortable place for me to take a rest. After my fight outside, after all those sadness outside, I should be, and I guess I deserve a harmony at home. At least I can be relax there. However, seems that my last resting place is boom up by my mother's words and attitide.

The second bad news: It's my first time to be treated by the guy in this way. Only I can say is RUDE. I tried to make things clear, I try not to harm anyone. And the result is...... you hurt me. It's my first time to be angry with friend coz i really had enough. Or...more than enough. Although I received apologize from him. I guess it's no use. Sometimes, things happened and no matter what you do, it wont be better. I dont need any sorry, coz it can never help. People, please think carefully, we cannot have a second chance forever. Why isnt it better that we try to avoid mistake and think carefully before you act? Unfortunately, Renee is not someone who is forgiving. Especially towards the guys. I accept what you said, but I afraid that we cant be friend. As i understand that we cant open up to each other, at least for me.

The third bad news and the worst also: I lost the chance to study in Shanghai. When I received the news in the office, I didnt know how to react. Then I keep myself claim and normal and went to the washroom slowly. When I got there, I wait until the other girl in the washroom finsihed and gone, I cried out. No, I cant accept this result....or I still think it's just a nightmare(I had lots of nightmare recently and I dont mind having one more.) But anyway, the fact is here, I will get used to it and plan my new way and direction. Honestly it seems to be the first failure in life(doesnt count those in love of course.) "Renee" is really a good name, whenever there is bad things happened, I can always act like this name..... Rebirth, having a new life.

Luckily, God is still putting his eyes on me. I enjoy my work much and the staffs here are nice. Most of the time during lunch, we can keepin glaughing for an hour. That's a really good buffer for me during this period. Wish I wont lost it later.........

Ok, go back to work, rest is over. Add oil and face the new life agian!!